Friday, August 21, 2009


I have had several friends contact me to see what was going on that would take me away from my blog for so many days. So, I will offer a short explanation.

1. I have been very sick...physically.

2. My Mother went to live with Jesus.

3. My son had eye surgery.

4. Another son had eye surgery and then 3 emergency surgeries on his eyes due to another problem that could have cost his sight. He has his next operation on Wednesday.

5. Another son changed jobs and homes in another city, and I was not well enough to go and help him.

6. My DIL is undergoing some medical procedures.

7. My church split and we lost all the staff, the choir, most of the deacons, and 100 members. Those who left are some of the dearest people in the world to me. It is another death. And, I am shocked and sad and angry.

8. The school where I worked for 20 years, started back last week, and I miss them.

9. Joy has had to help Pop deal with things at his house, because I have not been well enough to get out. I feel guilty about this. I should be helping.

10. Alex is in quite a bit of pain...and nothing is helping.

11. The ants are back...with a vengence!

12. I miss my Mom.

I am trying to get all of this sorted out and dealt with, but it just keeps raining...and raining.
As low as I am at this point, this I know: God is in control of the Universe, of America, of Alabama, of Dothan, of Southside, of my family, of me. He is able to direct us all into the life that He has for us. He is able to bind our wounds and heal our hurts. He is able to grow much from nothing...and He is able to right wrongs. He is able to restore what has been broken. He cares that I am sad and hurt and angry and floundering. He promises me that all will be well. And, I believe that with my whole heart. It will happen. And, until it does, I will wait and watch. And, maybe cry a bit. That's the reason He made tears, isn't it? He says to 'wait on Him'. That I will do.

"God will let you laugh again; you will raise the roof with sounds of joy."
Job 8:21

And, I will. That's a promise...from Him...and me!


Jennifer said...


nancygrayce said...

That's an awful log of stuff! God will hold you close and keep you in this storm!

Kat said...

Sweet friend, you certainly have had a lot to deal with. Your list is long...and you even missed a few too - building a new house, making the move, the death of your sweet furbaby. It's okay to stop and be still and wait for God's direction. You are never alone. Hold tightly to His hand.

Dear Lord,
Please surround my sweet friend and her family with your comfort and love. Let them all feel your presence nearby at all times.

I'll keep you in my prayers.

Extra hugs!

andi said...

Oh Tonja, I am so sorry. I am so sorry. Such turmoil. So many different faces of pain-all looking different, but all the same raw emotion. Many hugs! I am praying for you.

racheld said...

Affirmation. Affirmation and Grace.

Love Being a Nonny said...

Because I know, I know, He holds the future. Life is worth the living just because He lives. Praying for you sweet friend.

Kristen said...

I am so sad for you! So many things...Big things...I will continue to pray for you. Thank you for that scripture from Job. How encouraging!

Musicaljean said...

Wow, Tonja, I wish I could be there in the flesh and take care of you and cry with you. You are so dear to me and I care so very, very much.

Southern Lady said...

May you and your loved ones feel His arms around you, Tonja, lifting you up and giving you the strength and peace you need to get through these very difficult days.

I will be thinking about Adam Wednesday, and will say a prayer for him.

Psalm 40:1-2
I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry.

Gail said...

Dear, You are at war. Just try to hang in and remember...The war is in the mind not in the flesh. You will over come all of this. Your list is long, and truly seems so unfair. I hurt for you and pray it will past; all of it...and very soon! You have many that know you, and pray for you, and like me...those who don't know you in person...but we know your heart through your wonderful writings. You share much...It will be returned double for your trouble. The light is drawing near...You will over come through the grace, and love of our Lord. He will NEVER, never, never leave you. It's so...because HE says so! Hang in and prayers are coming your way.

Melissa said...
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Melissa said...

Bless you my blog many things to deal with in such a short amount of time. Sending prayers your way!

Just Breathe said...

OMG I cannot believe all that is going on in your life. I will pray for your health and the health of your family. ((HUGS))

Jillian, Inc said...

Any one of those is reason enough for a bloggy break - let alone ALL of them at one time. So sorry....thoughts, prayers and many hugs going out to you.

marychristina said...

You are an inspiration even in your sadness and anger. God allows the "pouring out" and cares enough to heal---this we know from the Psalms, right? Saying a prayer for you...

southerninspiration said...

Isa. 41:10.....
take care friend......praying for you and yours, and may the comfort of God rest on you mightily.


LivingTheLife said...

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives!

This is one of my favorite songs...I just wanted to share the chorus with you...I know you are going through WAY more than any one person should go through in a lifetime...much less in just the past few months. I always sing this phrase when things seem to close in on I wanted you to see it...I know you know it, too...and I pray these words give you comfort in the coming days and weeks.

I'll keep Adam in my prayers as he faces another surgery...Suzanne as she undergoes test, Alex as anwers are sought in finding out how to control his pain...for your POP and JOY as they face the task ahead and always you my give you physical strength to overcome the mono...emotional strength to carry on...and I pray for happiness and contentment to be back in your life full-time...once again.

Love and hugs...

Gram said...

I am so glad you have not lost the sight of our Lord at your side helping you through. You are in my prayers.

Paula (SweetPea) said...

I'm so sorry for all these.

You are clinging to a great still and know He is God and KNOW HE loves you and is in control. It's hard but true.