Friday, June 20, 2008


I have confessed to you before my clutter affliction. I am working so hard to change and learn to throw away the junk. However, sometimes MY idea of junk and someone else's idea can be totally different. But, I am letting go of lots of things. One of the things I love are my magazines. And I store them in boxes according to year. I do this with Country Home, Country Living, ME's Home Companion. I also tend to hang on to my MORE magazines. Great mag, BTW. I used to keep the Oprah mags, but since she lost her mind and lives in that alternate world with that funky looking author, I have thrown them all away! Oh, and National Geographic, too. I think it is against the law to throw those away. That's why you see so many old copies floating around. I am donating mine to the school library.

I would like to move into our new home with no old magazines. So, I am trying to go through them all. and tear out the useful info, or home decorating pics. As I flip through, sometimes I come upon a furniture collection or an interesting store to visit. My mom and Don say to just throw them away...they are outdated. Yesterday, I ran across some divine furniture pieces. They really caught my eye. Just like what I would like to put in the new house. I looked to see what company, and it was the-------------Moon Co...... Here's where this tale takes an unusual turn.

I typed in the name, and waited, and waited some more. It was trying desperately to come through. While I was waiting, I had the strangest sensation. I felt like I needed to get up and run! (This is not a normal activity for me, and I am not even sure I remember how.) It was as if all of a sudden...I was very frightened. I chalked it up to my hormones who are trying their best to deposit me in a nice little home for the terminally confused. FINALLY! Up it pops. Before I even looked at the page, I broke out into a cold sweat. That sense of dread became overwhelming. I actually got up and went to check on Alex to be sure he was OK. As I sat back down at the computer, my heart started racing, and I was having trouble getting a good breath. I looked at the page I saw..."Welcome to-----------Moon. My name is Priestess----------, and I will be guiding you through the joys of Wi*ca, today. Relax and learn about this oldest of religions, It will make you a happier, healthier, more spirit-filled person when you begin to worship the Wic*an way."

I had unwillingly linked to a sight about Wi*ches!` There was absolutely nothing to do with furniture! Now this is not the first time that I have come upon things on the Internet by accident. Evil minds can be very tricky! But, never before had I gotten physically sick...BEFORE I even knew what it was! I actually became so nauseous, that I thought I would throw up. As soon as I got back to the computer I quickly made my exit...turned off my computer...and found a quiet place to pray.

It became so obvious to me, as I thought about it later, God was warning me not to go there. He was sending me a message...and I did not figure it out in time. I am usually pretty good at discernment. I think it is one of my spiritual gifts. I can size people up, so to speak, in a hurry. But, God did not want my eyes to even fall upon those opening words. I've got a lot more thinking to do on this try to discern what God was saying to me. But, this I am many other times has he tried to get my attention? How many times has He warned me and I didn't get the message? How many times have I walked the wrong path because I wasn't open to hearing from Him at that moment?

I did not sleep well last night and I have been sick all day today. You could say, "Well, you were just starting to get sick yesterday about the time you were on the computer." But, it happened to ME...and I felt these things in my Spirit as well as my Body. I know this was from the Lord. And maybe the reason I have felt sick today is that the Lord wants me to keep mulling this over until I 'get it.'

Have you ever had a similar experience? Have you felt God warn you, but you ignored it..or just didn't recognize it at the time? Or maybe you did heed the warning and found out later why.
The reason some of the w*rds have le**ers omitted, is so my blog will not be linked to those words. If someone searches for that topic, my blog will not be affiliated.



nancygrayce said...

I also have "felt" things. Sometimes, I call it a feeling of impending doom. I'm glad you said that about the w*rds because I didn't know that people could find you that way! Good tip for me! I hope you feel better. I firmly believe God gives us feelings of warning.

Musicaljean said...

Wow, Tonja, that is downright scary. I'm praying that you'll soon feel God's peace all over you - body, soul, and spirit.

DebraK from ~the Bunnies Bungalow~ said...

Heeding our inner voice, is that God speaking to us? I think so. Thanks for reminding me of this today.....maybe I needed reminding.

Web sites are scary sometimes. You just never know where you'll end up. I didn't know that trick about the ***
btw, you can recycle old magazines.

Hope you feel better soon, Hugs, DebraK

Dianne said...

Wow...I didn't know where you were heading, but I hate that you experienced all that.

andi said...

"Greater is He who is within me then he who is in the world." Praying that you will sense His peace and claim his protection. I have no doubt that when He says run, do it. I went to a particular city and was so disturbed while there. I sensed spirtual darkness. I was also physically affected by it. I think the scary part is the evil is real, it's not just "pretend." BUT we serve the Lord who has conquered the grave and has all power and authority. I am thankful for your discerning words.

justabeachkat said...

I've had strong feelings before...though never quite as strong as yours was. I can imagine that it was quite scary.